`` Life without him is nothing but an empty sheLL...Lord...please heLp me...

2006-05-07T10:08:00.000+08:00

heya guys

in case noone knew.

i changed myy blog liao.

hahas..

so many people dunno seh.

well.

my newest bloggy is

http://www.life-flamez.blogspot.com

have fun there...

hahas

myyKISKE ; myyPRINCE

2006-02-09T16:27:00.000+08:00

Ever got taught by a teacher who

always love to tell ghost stories

and freak everyone in the class out??

well i do...

and it's not really a nice case

he is really lame

yet funny

thats a GOOD thing

a possible factor why school

is considered as "FUN"

lols

but seriously...

i think the worse case

is that when teachers try to be funny

when they are NOT!!

oh my gosh

they are freaking me out...

School tests are pouring

over me like blessings from heaven

i am not trying to insult heaven or anything

it's just that i am so STRESSED out

that i can't think straight

hahas

the school rules stated that

one week should NOT have more

than 3 tests

but oh no...

the teachers want their way

which is SOO unfair to us students

man...

this totally stinks

but never mind

i guess

they are doing this for our own good...

shucks...

lols

looks like

the world ain't going to end that soon...

lols

okay

gotta go now

byes!!

2006-02-05T14:57:00.000+08:00

DELIRIOUS!! Oh my gosh...yesterday service was one of the most coolest one yet. delirious came to my church and led praise and worship. wasn't that like so cool?? man...you should have seen all of us... we were all enjoying ourselves. martin smith you are the best!! he sang a lot of new songs yesterday which are so nice that i am going to buy the newest album. must get it before my elder brother snatch... hahahas...well...there are a lot of new albums and i wanna get that song...i forgot what name liao...but i know it has something to do with solid rock. something like that.

during the service...martin smith told most of us to like join hands with our brothers and sisters beside us and started jumping. it was cool...amazingly...all of us jump in unison...which was good cordination. my whole cell had lots of fun...oh man...ohyar...jt and my cuzzy brought about 7 friends who are from their school as well...i bet they enjoyed the service...christina and zandy joined us yesterday...yep...hahas...there weren't enough space until my cuzzy and i had to squeeze...yay...hahas... the surmon was equally good as well...woos!! then pastor kong said that more famous bands are coming...like ccc!! wow...thats really cool!! christian city rox...then got some other bands which i forgot liao...hahas...oh man...i can't wait... ^-^

my elder brother bought a new phone today...which added to his collection of phones...he has a phone for games, a phone for mp3s and another phone for his own use and for practicing spinning.how lame...man...anways... i am sticking to my phone until after 5 years or more... hahas... yesterday...before the DELIRIOUS service... my cell group and 4 others had this game together...it was something like amazing race... my group walked from kembangan (i think this is how you spell it...aiya the station before bedok lahs... -_-") to bedok...we walked passed nick's neighbouring house...we all really missed the house...and i missed ron... o_O anyways... we walked a lot...but at the last stretch...we all took taxi to expo...couldn't walk anymore... hahas... then hors...i had to run from hall 6 to hall 1 just to buy a donut for the end of the game...really tired... then in the end... my group got 2nd... the 1st group won by 30 seconds... so close!! man... after the game... i went for bs with my cuzzy... christian lifestyle... yep... then after the bs we went for the delirious service... even though i was super exhasuted... i was alive during the service... it was just too COOL...

2006-01-21T11:18:00.000+08:00

harlo!! woos...yesterday had so much fun at wenxin's house before going for cell...ain't it cool?? hahas...we walked quite a distance to her house...ii need to redo my entire powerpoint...so like at least ii am willing to walk the distance...when we reached her house, wenxiin decided to paiseh us and bathe while eunice and ii sat on the floor of her bedroom and talked crap...then hor...when wenxiin bathe finish, we used her computer in her mother's room...it was very fun lahs...hahas we all liked crapped with each other and wenxiin was like 'angry' with me because ii did the powerpoint very slow...not really angry angry...but kidding angry...if you get what ii mean...all in all...ii managed to finish my powerpoint at 6.30pm...when my cell starts at 7pm...my gosh...hahas...gotta rush there...

eunice actually waited for me to finish doing my powerpoint before going off with me...ii'm so touched...hahas...so...we exited through the main gate...we can't go through by the small gate...we didn't have the card...and wenxiin didn't want to lend it to us...sniff sniff...hahas...eunice and ii crapped somemore before she paiseh me...ii had to walk to east point from there...hahas...quickly took the mrt to tampines then took bus 293 to cecilia's house for cell...ii was late...they started prayer meeting first before me...keane was late as well...so was my cgl angie...and not to forget xiaowei...hahas...ii looked mighty weird in my uniform lahs...then somemore forgot to take off my pins...wahs...look like those geeks lahs...hahas...ii very white that day...then we playing polar bear for our games...then angie said that me and another r.i fellow looked like polar bears...hahas...so bad...after playing...we had praise and worship before going into the word...after everything...we had fellowship...but amos didn't bring refreshments!! wahs!! heng ah...xiao wei got...phew...anos looked even funnier that day...his shirt like bus driver like that...hahas...

then we head down to the kopi.tiam to eat roti prata...ii had one egg...and a cup of milo...so...all in all...it was quite feeling...then we went home at around 11plus...then hor...elisha (cuzzy) came my house to fix my brother's computer...then he went home around 12plus...so late les...then afterwards hor...after bathing and all...ii talked to my brother-in-christ before sleeping at 2plus...today woke up at 9plus and my cousins from my father's side coming...i still haven't bathe yet and get ready for church...hahas...got bs today with hong jin...yay...last lesson le!! hahas...

okayy...ii think ii talk enough le...sayonara minnasan!!!

2006-01-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

yoyos..today didn't go church...going tomorrow...but myy brother is going for 3 services...power dude...hahas...skool start liao...so sian-ed. why must go skool de?? very sianz...haven't do hw yet...brought the wrong book home...=p...the rest all leave in locker...bag veryy small..cannot take too many books...hahas...worse of all...home econs on monday...wah...stupid home econs teacher...feel like slashing her... =( ...that would be murder... o_O ...oh deary me...i wouldn't want to waste my energy killing someone not worth it.... =) ..thats better...lolx...

my parents and younger brother went for today's service cause myy daddy cannot make it tomolo...hahas...oh yars...borrowed 'death note' from adeline on thurday...until now haven't read finish...hahas...totally rawks...but why L die?? so sad lors...bought a new comic a few days ago...it was 'superpsychic nanaki'...damn funny...something like saiyuki reload...but nicer...ii am trying to collect all those nice and cool comics...heard gsd comic coming out soon...hope the drawing not so weird like gd..hahas...almost got cheated a few days ago when ii was buying 'death note' (for adeline) and 'superpsychic nanaki'...ii bought them from comics connection...the girl didn't return myy $2 lors...then ii see my wallet like got $2 less...so ii asked the girl for reciet...then really ii realised she didn't return...so ii demanded for my rights...hahas...thank God she got return lors...or else...the company reputation will be runined...

all alone at home sia...grandparents went out for lunch...at this hour..very weird...now should be like tea-break or something...not lunch... =) ...hahas...skool was a bit fun onlys...at least got to see myy friends again...eunice, adeline, jessica, wen xin and of course steph...terry got a new haircut...just like me...actually...most of the girls cut her hair until veryy short..unlike mine...ii layered it a bit...because myy hair too bushy liaos... x_x ...hahas...ii had the same form teacher as last year... and my geog teacher is still the same!! yay!! but the rest all changed...hallelujah...gagaga...mii grandma's birthday coming soon...so myy cousins and ii are going to do something special for her on tuesday...after cell group outing...say 'hello' to the mastermind!! hahas... -_-" ...

gtg le...getting bored of posting crap...hahas...biiiiess!!! sayonara minnasan!! ^-^

2005-12-31T13:23:00.000+08:00

wah...finally finished drawing an angel...yepps...ii am starting on a new comic...actually ii haven't completed the previous comic ii worked on...because ii think it was too...complicated...so couldn't continue...now my comic has more characters...more special abilites and of course they won't look the same...hahas...ii got my inspiration from an xbox game...ii have finished a few of my characters...finished 4 liao...thats good progress you know?? 3 guys and 1 girl...ii have absolutely no idea how to draw girls...hahas...well...gotta think out of the box...well...ii have thought of the story line...but it is not decided whether ii am going to use it...

[[.cha*Racters.]]
-MagmaFlare
-Ky-Kiske
-Raiku`Rain
-Gemi Aoyama (girl)

that's all the characters ii have finished...there will be more...of course...just need more inspiration...ii liked the character raikurain...ii think ii did a better job creating this fellow than the others...ii liked his hair as it combed down in the front...but spikey at the back...he has big eyes when he is happy...or just plain innocent...but his eyes are more narrow when he is angry...making him look mature...he likes baggy clothes and stuff like that....actually ii wanted raikurain to be a womaniser like dark from dnangel...but then ii changed my mind...for magmaflare...ii actually made him as a bounty hunter who is like 150years old...then he was cursed and was converted to a 14 year old kid...and ii made him lost his memory as a bounty hunter but he still has his powers...magmaflare is the most powerful character in the comic...but now as a 14year old kid...he has no intention of using his powers recklessly unlike the other self...ii also decided to make magmaflare a cool but yet secretive character...once he sees his own reflection for a long time...he would see his elder self standing there instead of him and he would have all these kind of weird memories of the elder self......for ky-kiske...ii got this name from a cool game...ky-kiske is a matured guy who seeks justice and fights for freedom for the world...smart and talented, kykiske graduated from university at a mere age of 14...now he is 17 years old with a steady job as the head of a special poice department...he is kind and generous who always give chance to girls which makes him an easy target...as he always seek justice...he is easily controllable by the law...he is also quite rich and lost his parents when he was 3 years old...from then his servants have been taking care for him until now...as for gemi...she is an orphane since 5 years old and was trained under a samurai who took her in...she then grew up and wanted to seek revenge for her parents...due to her boyish looks and characterisitcs...she is always mistaken for a boy...gemi can be gentle sometimes...of course after she has met her true love...the story is basically about these few people looking for their prupose in live and destroying evil in the world...all of their incidents are related in this particualr badguy...magmaflare being cursed, kykiske and gemi's parents killed...and raikurain for having the ability to grow wings on his back and 'disppearing' them into his body again...they will have to work together to destroy the badguys before they ruin more people's lives...of course they would be more characters with them...as soon as ii have inspiration...ii haven't even drawn the badguy yet lors...-_-"...ii hope ii am able to finish this comic unlike the others...

thats all folks...sayonara minnasan!!

2005-12-22T20:43:00.000+08:00

woah...its been a long time since ii last blogged on this blog...hahas...anyways...just came back from prayer meeting...which ii think it was rather cool...had bs with hong jin and keane before pm...quite a lot of people came...there were...nicholas, jt, elisha, joshua, daniel, jean, cecilia, glorianne, carissa, seline, jerry, mavine, eric and angie and ME!! hahas...it was considered as a lot liao...hahas...after 50 minutes of solid praying...we fellowshipped a little before heading out...ii have always think that mavin was a brother of rolland...because they looked alike...hahas...then ii kept asking him whether he was related to rolland...hahas...he kept laughing and shaking his head...well...guess ii made a new friend...ii hope...o_O...okays...then...jt, carissa, elisha, keane and ii went out for dinner...then we fellowshipped again...before heading home...well...thats all for today...and MERRY X`MAS to you all!!sayonara!!

2005-11-30T15:55:00.000+08:00

heya people...ii am going for holiday soon le...hahas...so happy...go to bankok...down there cheap cheap one...can get some presents for my cuzzies and christina...hahas...well...anyways...ii packed my luggage le...packed it yesterday...very sad lahs...yesterday didn't go for the cell outing...mother forced me to pack...because she don't like last minute de...sians...took like 3 hours to get everything in my luggage...ii spent most of the time thinking what to bring...hahas... my brother haven't pack yet...hahas...even worse...

abel was at my house yesterday...ii was playing this game called gulity gear xx reload...very nice de...ii knew everybody's special attack..one shot k.o one...damn pro...then abel came in and he challenged my brother to a few matches...abel won all...hahas...then got one battle ii challenged my brother...ii chose anji-mito...ii think...he held this two fans lahs...very weird de...his special attack was this surmoning of da dargon...but my brother somehow managed to counter...=p...but in the end ii still won...hahas...

then afterwards...at 5pm...the 3 of us...went to prayer meeting together...we walked to the mrt station...damn tired lors...slept at 5am in da morning...snorez...anyways...we soon got there and took the train then went to church lors...the prayer meeting was cool and powerful...we prayed for the church and stuff like that...ii sat beside my 2 cuzzies...elisha and glorianne...hahas...

the whole thing ended at 10plus...keane, jt, jt's friend, elisha, glorianne, joshua and ii took the bus which was going in the wrong direction and we ended up having a tour round ntu building...it was cool but kinda time-consuming...when we were going to reach the boonlay mrt station...it was like 11plus and my brother was like, "oh crap...the last train leaves at 10.45pm"...the rest of us were like, "what?!" and we scrambed down the 2nd floor of the double decker and was waiting at the bus door...then keane approached the bus driver and asked him what time the last train leaves lahs...then he said 12plus...we looked at joshua...and he was like laughing like mad...wah...we were so mad with him lors...hahas...got us tricked like that...then my brother played another trick on keane and elisha...the 2 of them boarded the train while jt, glorianne and ii were like standing outside...then the door started closing...keane managed to get out in time leaving elisha alone...wahs...so bad...but we met up with him on another train...

we had fun in the train...elisha, glorianne, joshua, keane and ii...we heard that bryan is coming into my cell while jt is going out...then joshua was like, "NO!!" hahas...bryan is my drummer lahs...dunno why he so mad with bryan...thought he forgotted about the previous incident...hahas...but soon joshua and ii got off the train and we went home...we ate apple pie for our dinner...sians...hahas...then ii went to sleep...after bathing of course...hahas...well...nightie night people...going to sleep again...snorez...sayonara!!

2005-11-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

hello everybody!! ii am back...hahas...this afternoon went for prayer meeting at cecilia's house...it was powerful man...ii could feel God's power overwhelming me...wow...it was really cool...jt, cecilia, eric, angie, elisha, joshua, hong jin and ii were there...the doggy there was very cute...hahas...anyways...we prayed for a few stuff...yepyep...it was really powerful...

after the prayer meeting...jt, elisha went to my house with joshua...jt then played soccer with my younger brother...ii played with him dead or alive and ii won!! yay!! ii also played with him soul calibur...ii actually won the first few rounds...then jt won me every single round...man...ii hate to lose...but..never mind...so we played doa again...he won me one round before ii started stealing the sportlight again!! hahas...

we had dinner...elisha, jt and my family...roti prata and cambell soup...its mm mm good!! smacks...hahas...soon...joel and jt played soccer again..for the first time...joel won jt...hahas...anyways...afterwards...elisha challenged me in guilty gear xx reload...at first ii won then he won...ii seemed to have forgotten all my moves...=p...okok...then he played with my elder brother joshua...he lost 9 battles to elisha...man...talk about disgrace...hahas...jkjk...he didn't disgrace anybody lahs...so he went back to his computer...while...joel and elisha played vs on halo 2...joel was leading all the way...wah...signs...

then..it was getting dark...so ii accompanied them downstairs...jt and elisha...then...soon...ii went back up and tidied up everything...yepyep...ah...very sians...nobody to bring for tomorrow's service...ii know they are lying to me lahs...all my friends...the fact is that they are not making the effort to come...they just wanna slack...man...so bad...but...never mind...wells...ii have to go off now...ii know it is a rather short post but...hais...ii wanna sleep le...so sayonara minnasan!!

2005-11-24T17:31:00.000+08:00

hello people...woo hoos...wah...yesterday was a great day at chc...it was the last day of the tabernacle...yays!! everybody was ready for the last round of the tabernacle...cool huh? pastor kong had to preach like a machine gun...hahas...this time...abel, stellar, joshua, cecilia, adeline and the rest of the sec4 people are able to come as their olevels was over!! yay!! ii am feeling happy for them as well...=p...hahas...

well...before going to the tabernacle...we went ice-skating...elisha koh (brother's friend), elisha koh (elder cousin), abel yap, joshua, stellar, amos, xiao wei and her friend and ii...it was so cool...this was my first time ice-skating...you should have seen us...stellar, amos and xiao wei knew how to skate...horray for them...well...okok..abel know how to skate...but he is those kind "chiong" one...hahas...the two elisha kohs, joshua and ii didn't know to skate...we were like grabbing on the railing...dare not to take our hands off the railing...hahas...then my cuzzy went to take something (ii don't know how to explain) that assist him to balance on the rink...bascially...that thingy...is for kids...and you should know how tall my cuzzy is...he was like kneeling down just to hold on to the thing...hahas...

i didn't dare to skate on my own...so sometimes...ii would hold abel's hand and skate with him...=p...so embarrassing...hahas...got once...ii almost fell down and thank God...abel held onto me...and ii didn't fall...phews...three cheers for abel!! in total...ii fell down 5 times..got 2 times which ii grabbed elisha (cuzzy) and the both of us fell down together...hahas...ii bet the rest of them are laughing at us...hahas...well...jt came...but he didn't skate lors...he just sat at one corner and watched us skate...boos!! hahas...after skating for 3 hours...my legs were like numb and frozen...it was a terrible feeling...ii couldn't feel my legs and ii was like wobbling back to my chair...wahs...abel had to help me up a few times when ii fell down...but all in all...ii really enjoyed myself...including the part when abel, joshua and my cuzzy were throwing snow balls at jt...hahas...it was such a funny sight...joshua then started to make snow balls...he and my cuzzy made this really huge snow ball which was sightly bigger than my cuzzy's hand...and you should know how big my cuzzy's hand is...hahas...ii took photo of it using my handphone...the most shocking thing was that we saw a guy who look exactly like nicholas at the snow palace...wah...we almost mistaken him for nicholas when we saw the 2 piercings on the mouth...ok...that is definetely not our nicholas...hahas...

we left the place at 4.15pm and went to eat dinner...we ate ban mian...we had to savour every moment before shifting to expo...mm mm good...hahas...then we went to church to line up for seats...wah...that time got headache...cannot take it...abel said must train for the big day...which is the shift to expo...as the crowd will be 2times bigger...ii was like "okay...." anyways...we managed to squeeze in and got two rows of seats for the extra sec4s...hahas...ii beside jt and my cuzzy...then...during the break...my younger cuzzy who just came from band came and join us...so ii sat with her and jt...the service was cool and good as ever...hahas...after the whole thing was over...it was like 11plus...we actually wanted to ruch to the bus when my elder cuzzy called his mother and in the end..joshua, my two cuzzies and ii got a ride from my aunty...hahas...aunty ann (from church of our saviour) was in the car as well...wow...she could remember me...ii was so touched...ii used to be from that church...yay!!my younger cuzzy, aunty ann and aunty serena had to go to this camp...but elisha went home...so they dropped us at my house and we waved goodbye...aunty ann said we grow up fast...hahas...thank you!!

by the time ii got ready for bed...it was 1plus...wah...hahas...ii slept later than that because ii was listening to my mp3 player...then ii woke up at 12plus today!! hahas...that was cool...new record for me!! =p...then ii ate lunch which was my lunch and breakfast and then ii haven't change my pyjamas...ii already was playing xbox...hahas...=p...ii am so stinky...then ii decided to clear my room and my cupboard and then went to bathe and here ii am typing out this post...hahas...well...ii really envy my brother as he finally put the computer in his room...hahas... at first it was all along in my parents' room as they did not want him to get distracted as he had olevels...but now his olevels are over!! yay!! so...he has his computer back...hahas..for me...my computer was all along in my room...=p...hahas..well....ii must go now...ii have to change my computer table...well...sayonara minnsan!!

2005-11-22T21:43:00.000+08:00

hello people...woos...today was quite a tiring day...well...yesterday night...ii stayed up quite late just to watch project runway and las vegas...yepyep...then today got to meet with hong jin cause he wanted to talk to me...=p...hahas...well...understood what he said...jean was with me as well...after talking for a while...he got to go back to his school while jean had to go to work...for me...ii went back home...like duh*...hahas...it was raining this morning and ii stubbornly took my bike and cycled in the rain...ii can't stand walking in the rain...so...ii was drenched...hahas...but ii dried up soon...when ii was returning...the rain seemed heavier and ii was even drenched...it took about 5 hours to dry my shirt and shorts...deary me...what a mess... >.<

well...it ended well...at least ii didn't catch a flu...my my...that won't be pleasant...hahas...then ii spent the rest of my time drawing my comic...it's coming out quite okay...ii hope...=p...then ii designed some graffiti art on my paper and it looked quite nice...going to finish it tomorrow...with the colours and everything...oh yar...abel yap came to my house to change and get ready for some celebration...yepyep...O'Levels are over and the sec4s are jumping for joy ii guess...abel, joshy and a few other of their friends are going for steamboat...mm mm...ii wanna go too!! (drools...) abel wanted to see my drawings and ii showed him...he gave me some advice and ii took it...hoping it will be nicer...hahas...then actually they wanted to play xbox...but my father was rather busy sorting out his files so we didn't disturb him...well...my mother went out to watch a movie with my grandparents...the "exorcism"...is that how you spell it?? ah...who cares?? hahas...they came back quite late...and by the time they came back it was about 5 plus and abel, joshy, joel and ii almost finished one huge tin of pringles...mm mm good...smacks...

during dinner...ii watched piglet's big movie and the tigger movie...ii know it was kinda of a kiddy show...but never mind...ii find them quite cute by the way...hahas...then ii bathed...sort out some musics from my mp3 player and slacked the whole while...well...tomorrow is going to be a better day...ii am going ice-skating with xiao wei, my brother and some of my cell members...yepyep...it's going to be a great day...yay!! hahas...well...amos did keep his bet...he bet us to ice skate the other time in cell...and now...the moment of truth will be revealed!! hahas...let's see who is the better skater...oh...ii just remembered what angie said to him...she said,"wow...amos...you lost weight already ah?" the whole cell was laughing their heads off...well...during the barbecue...he said he surely lost 5kg...then during the hunt of the red octogen...he said he surely lose another 5kg...ii think he really lost weight...hahas...good for you brother amos!! well...love to keep this up the whole night...but ii wanna watch tv now...see whats good on tv...=p...gotta go now...sayonara minnasan!!

2005-11-21T16:00:00.000+08:00

hello...i am van again...ii am now celebrating my grandpa's birthday...well...actually his real birthday is on last friday...well...but he got an doctor's appointment on that day...so we didn't celebrate...well...anyways...all my cousins from my mother's side came to my house...elisha and my younger brother are playing the xbox...well...ii am using the computer...duh -_-"...well... katrianne is irritating me and ii dun really mind...hahas...ii can hear my younger brother screaming...=p...sometimes...boys just dun get it...hahas...

just had lunch as a whole family including my cousins and abel yap...duh* -_-"...it was really fun to eat with them...hahas...and now...my younger cousin is giving me a extreme make-over...=p...well...gotta go le...sayonara minnasan...byebyes...ii am going to have a great day with my cousins...=)...yea!!

2005-11-20T13:33:00.000+08:00

hello there...van here...yesterday went to church with my mother, younger brother and jair (mother's student)...it was cool...the service was a blast too!! hahas...well...met up with jaytee in the mrt train then we went together...he sat beside my mother and ii have no idea what they were talking about...hahas...anyways...the trip there was shorter than usual...surprisingly...we met cecilia, jean and some others at boon lay bus interchange...hahas..what a coincidence...hahas...so we went to church in such a big group...at first my mother didn't want to go as she didn't know that it was a youth service...but in the end...with the help of my friends...she was finally convinced that she could actually go in...my younger brother and jair were no problem at all...we lined up as usual...with joshua first in the line...ii think he squeezed his way through...

at first ii sat in between jay tee and jair...then...afterwards...jaytee had to move out...so ii sat beside christina...but then...she can't sit there...she had to sit at the back with the rest of the young kids...so she moved out...then...ii sat beside amos who came and took her seat...then he moved in somemore...ii stayed at the same seat all the while...then...xiao wei came in...ii thought ii was sitting with her...then...nicholas came in...and sat beside me...wah...anymore people wanna squeeze in?? hahas...anyways...in the end ii sat in between jair and nicholas...hahas...

ii thought jair would like the service...but then ii was really disappointed with him...praise and worship was cool...but he wasn't interested at all...when pastor kong was preaching...he was sleeping!! man...ii felt like screaming at him...but ii just controlled my temper...when the entire service was over...nicholas approached me and asked me who jair was...ii said he was my mother's student...he was nodding his head...then he asked me who the other young boy was...ii said he was my younger brother...hahas...looks like almost the whole family is there...hahas...but i'm glad he asked me...

hong jin gave me bible study with keane and after that...we were supposed to eat...because the rest went to eat while ii was having bible study...but angie wanted to talk to cell N155 and E342...so we assembled at one side and she gave us a "bible study" because we didn't have cell group for 3 weeks...as we had the tabernacle thingy with pastor kong...ii found what she said rather meaningful...about not lying to get out of some things...and how liars have to lie again and again to cover up the recent lies...after that...ii was too lazy to eat...but ii had to show my mother the bus-stop so that she can go home as jair and my younger brother were getting tired...so ii walked with them...then when they boarded the bus...guess what ii did...ii ran after the bus and started waving at them...ii managed to catch up with the bus...but as soon as the bus sped off...ii stopped running as ii already reached the church...hahas...

then we watched saiyuki reload gunlock on jay tee's labtop...ii brought the vcds to lend my cousins...hahas...we watched the cursed of the backgammon...ii was laughing like mad...it's been a long time since ii last watched saiyuki reload gunlock...wow...liyun and some other cell group members watched it along with me...and my cousins too!! hahas...

oh yar...got something to say on this blog...it's not personal...but bryan just came back from his holiday and he cut his hair...ii saw it in church yesterday...when he approached me...ii said "hey nice hairstyle..." he said "thanks" then ii dunno who asked me how ii knew him...ii said something which ii dun mean lah...ii said " ii everytime also see him in school lah...a sore-eye..." hahas...sorry bryan...he didn't catch it...so he asked me "huh? what did you say?" ii was lie "nothing" hahas...really sorry about that bryan...ii really didn't mean it...but then...ii like bryan's hairstyle now...even though he looks like those kind who just came out from NS...but then...ii still like it..hahas..

well...that's all folks...sayonara minnasan!! ii hope ii am able to come back as soon as possible...maybe tomorrow?? if ii am not busy...=P...yepyep...bye bye!!

2005-11-19T13:04:00.000+08:00

hello people...ii am using my brother's computer again... =P... long time never post leh...wah...ii never go online for a few days...got so many e-mails...sians...15 e-mails in just a few days...wah...killer...hmmm...today got church again...can't wait...hahas....woohoos...my brother o'levels ending liao...just one more paper...yepyep...yesterday...abel came to my house and played xbox...ii played with him soccer...winning 11 ii think...then ii actually won abel!! hahas...my elder brother kept begging abel to give him chance...then abel actually let him score leh! wah...how can joshua be like that? abel is a pro leh...beat my two brothes...but i bet him!! through penalty...hahas...at first the both of us got 1-1...then afterwards penalty...ii won...last minute saving...hahas...cool...well..gotta go now...get ready for church...sayonara minnasan!! this post is the shortest post ii have ever written...hahas...

2005-11-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

heyhey people...wah...yesterday the church wide bible study was so cool...hahas...well...it was really funny...yepyep...and ii just learnt something...pastor kong loves bread...hahas...then he was talking about the table of showbread...then he was like fasting for about a week...then when he talked about the table of showbread...he got all excited...because he really love bread...hahas...very diao ah... -_-" ....my poor cuzzy was kinda late because she had school band practice...then she had to go to level4...for me...ii reached church at about 5plus...then had to line up again..this time hong jin couldn't come early because he had to go back to school and his lessons end at about 5pm...hahas...then daniel had exams...ii think..hahas...then jean, her friend and elisha went to buy something...leaving me all alone to line up...then elisha came back with sweets...we had to wait for nicholas...he came about 5.35pm around there...then we still had to wait...ii borrowed elisha's game boy advance sp and played gundam seed battle assult...played and played until my hand tired liao...then when ii returned elisha...he passed it to nicholas...when nicholas was about to on the thing...the door open...then he didn't get the chance to play...wah..ii am so sorry nicholas!!(bows)

then we quickly sat down on the 5th row...ii sat beside a guy called mavin from cell E342 and nicholas...ii heard from eric that mavin is from sec2...cool...and ii thought he was like sec4 or something...didn't know he was around my age...hahas...anyways...elisha, keane and nicholas kept talking about maple story...which reminded me of my account ii created in my cousin's house...and the shocking thing was that ii forgotten my pin-number...nicholas told me to create an acc so that the 4 of us could like battle or do whatever together...then elisha knew ii got create one...but ii spilled the beans and they were like "uh-huh" seriously can't believe ii forgot my pin number...and ii also forgot my user name and password...hahas...ii think it is all a lost cause...hahas...nicholas said he wanted to create a new acc and start all over again...hahas...level 1 huh? hmm...ii may consider creating a new acc...yepyep...well...wish me all da best...

after the whole bible study...elisha, keane, nicholas and ii quickly ran to the charted bus so that we won't have to wait anymore...my cuzzy was already in the bus...wah...she so quick...ii sat beside her and the bus soon took off...woos....the journey was a rather short one...hong jin had to accompany me home...and we took 293 and dropped off at the stop opposite the stadium...then we walked quite a distance...soon ii was home in no time...hahas...by the time ii finished bathing and stuff like that...it was about 2am in the morning...wah...so late...then when ii put my head on the pillow...everything went black...

the next morning...ii woke up at about 11.30am...just in time to watch x-men evolution...hahas...ii had a strange dream...it was about me fighting something..ii also forgot liao...can't really remember anyways...hahas...well...didn't eat breakfast...just had noodles for lunch...yepyep...with scramble eggs...cool...and cool...watched saiyuki reload gunlock while eating...mm mm good!! love son goku so much...he is just so cute lors...well...he is kinda old anyways...he look like a 18 year old kid...but he is like 5oo over years old...wah...ii am just 13...poor me...hahas...well...still like him...except for the fact that he eats a lot...hahas...well..never mind...hahas...ii dun really mind...hahas...well...many people think that if ii like son goku then how come ii dun like kira...since they are voice by the same people..well...the thing is that ii myself also dunno... =P...heez..

the fact is that ii like a lot of anime guys...like dark (from d.n.angel), athurn and rey (from gsd), son goku(saiyuki reload), kenshin and sanosuke (samurai x), sasuke(naruto), edward elric (fullmetal alchemist), mr seta(love hina), cloud and vincent (ff7 advent children), shuichi (gravitation), eyes rutherford (spiral), platina pastenr and zil hiragi (apocripha/0), kai hiwatari (beyblade), ichigo (bleach)...and lots more which ii forgot liao..hahas...anyways...thats all folks!! sayonara minnasan!!

2005-11-09T14:06:00.000+08:00

yo yo...people...hahas...well...today is the 2nd time ii will be going for the church wide bible study...it is going to be so fun...hahas...well...ii hope that my cuzzy will be there early...well...like ii said...she have to go for her school band...hais...sad lah...just watch gundam seed destiny just now...wah...watch until so shuang....hahas...ii love another episode...this episode is about shinn and stellar...hahas...the both of them very funny sia...

stellar is becomes crazy when she hears the word ''die''...ii also dunno why but ii am going to continue watching until ii understand lors...hahas...shinn is a very childish guy who lost his family in the war and he somehow hates cagalli...well...it is not her fault right? diaoz ah...cagalli is like so cool lors...better than lacus...somemore ii can't stand mia and the way she is treating athrun...she treats athrun as her real hushband like that...urgh...dun make me puke!! she is practically sticking to him like a leech!! ewewew...by the way...mia is a girl who looks exactly like lacus...digusting sia...hahas...well...ii am not jealous or anything but athrun is too good for both mia and lacus...hahas...then somemore got one episode where she practically slept with athrun...well...not exactly slept lahs...she actually wanted to give athrun a visit...then she just found out that athrun is asleep...then she just ask the reception...then she just somehow managed to get into athrun's room...oh by the way...they are not in the ship...they are staying in some kind of resort...the chairman gave them the day off....then the next morning...athrun like had a shock lors...he like fell off the bed...then lunamaria saw them lors...ii think mia is jealous of lunamaria liking athrun...you see? athrun is so handsome until so many girls like him...unlike kira...hahas...but kira is ok ok lahs...not trying to insult anybody lahs..

wah...so sad ah...heiline (is that how you spell his name? diaoz -_-") died leh...wah...ii only see him fight for one time then got killed by stellar...he actually quite good lehs...in 'faith' one leh...special unit one...hahas...anyways...those who already watch should know lah...but to those who don't understand at all...go and buy the vcds lahs!! ii watched from dvd one...hahas...so sad lehs...hais...actually rey also not bad...he got this kind of sensing thingy...ii also dunno how to elaborate...mm mm...hahas...well...it is very nice lors...must watch gundam seed destiny...it is for sure very nice to watch...anyways...ii prefer gsd to gs...gsd has more action than lovey dovey parts...ii think...should be lah...hahas...my favourite gundams are savior, freedom, core splendor...yepyep...thats all ii like...the rest like no standard one...hahas...okok...ii admit lah..those three are the most powerful gundams mah...hahas...to me lahs...to others...hmm...ii don't give a damn!! hahas...ii am so evil sia...

well...ii am going to buy the 3rd dvd so that can continue watching...ii finish watching liao lors...actually...the first time when ii already got the dvds...ii never watch then ii just chuck at one corner...only watch a few episodes then went to play xbox...then forgot about it...until a few days ago lahs...then watched from scratch...hahas..now ii understand better liao...heez...23 episodes down...dunno how many more to watch lahs...hahas...well...gotta live up to my reputation and have another gsd marathon once ii get my hands on the rest of the dvds...yesyes!! hahas...

well...thats all folks!! ii gotta go and prepare my stuff for the bs later...yepyep...tie my hair...tidy my bag etc...yepyep...hahas...sayonara minnasan!!

2005-11-08T14:14:00.000+08:00

hey hey people!! wah...today is a sure tiring day...well...not really actually...well...today...my mother brought my grandparents, joel and ii to the cinema to watch a real cool movie...well...it is ''sky high''...okay...many people have watched it already...so who cares? hahas...wore trousers today as ii dun wanna freeze to death in the cinema...well...the truth is that ii am almost imune to coldness...everyday ii would bath using the coldest one...hahas...then the other time when the whole family went for holiday in china...we forgot to order to heater blanket...so everybody was like trying to sleep in the coldness...well...my mother told me the next day that ii was sleeping so soundly when she was actually trying to keep warm...and those who know me very well...when ii sleep...sometimes...ii will always kick my legs or toss and turn real violently...so dun blame me!! hahas...wah...the show was really nice...except for some parts when ii was trying to find the popcorn which fell off the box...hahas...

later we had lunch at a food court...ate nasi lemak...but it had chilli!! ew...so gave them to my mother...hahas...then my grandpa bought ribena for me and barley for joel...mm mm good!! hahas...well...we went back home on foot...my mother said it is good exercise after a heavy lunch...hahas...hope to watch ''just like heaven''...it's so nice...hahas...or maybe watch ''doom'' but the thing is it is nc16...sighs*...hahas..

tomorrow have this tabernacle thingy again...man...have to go there early to line up again...my cuzzy is going to come late...got band practice sia...man...hahas...well...at least she is going..lolx...

well....thats all folks...heez..just missed my 6/7 class gathering today...sad case...hahas...well...its not that end of the world...hahas...gotta watch trick today...it's kinda cool...detective story...hahas...oh yar...forgot liao...sayonara minnsan!!

2005-11-07T14:26:00.000+08:00

the sun is blazing hot as ii made my way back home...beads of pespiration never ceased to trickle down from my forehead...ii was getting too hot for comfort...my legs worked faster...riding through the crowd is an easy task...for someone who has been riding for her entire life...to think that just now ii was enjoying myself in an air-con room...sheesh...upon seeing a red man...ii stopped dead in my "tracks"...as ii thought back what just happened...

"click"...ii locked my bicycle at the mrt station...ii was seen waiting on the steps of the station...ii looked like a singapore flag...but ii didn't care about the whispers around me...ii was deaf to their insults...as ii waited for like eternity...a guy in blue shirt, listening to his mp3, wearing slippers approached me...ii looked at his direction...he greeted me and said, " can you call keane?" ii took out my handphone and called...no one answered...then at that time...he just appeared from nowhere...talk about coincidence...those from either city harvest of from cell group N155...you should know who ii am talking about...the blue shirt guy is none other than hong jin...and keane is keane...duh!!

we walked to the nearest burger king...mmm...just smelling the air filled with burgers made me wanna stuff mself with burgers...hong jin found a perfect spot and there we started bible study...ii took out my getting started book and my bible while ii gave keane a photocopied version of a chapter we were going to do...chapter 9...hmm...hong jin skipped like practically everything and started on chapter 9...very interesting...hahas...hong jin bought a cup of coke (ii think) and there he started on our bible study...well..our bible study was a short and sweet one...because hong jin had to go back to his school...while keane is going for the youth fellowship in ahs...ii am not going as ii just recovered from flu and cough...and my body resistance is rather low nowadays...ii might just get sick anytime...which is really bad news...

just woke up at 10am today...slept at 12plus...wah...ii can't seem to concentrate nowadays...ii seem to just drift away if ii didn't concentrate harder...most probably not enough sleep...but that is highly impossible...because ii young that time never like that even if ii sleep real late...die...ii think ii might go mad one day...wah...today is my brother's O`levels...hope he will do extremely well for this exam...ii know he can do it...ii just have this good feeling about him...yep...well...nicholas once said that he did his preliums...he did quite badly....but when he did the real thing...the real O`Levels...he felt like laughing in the examination hall...because it was super easy...then he went to poly...hahas..well...my brother also want to go to poly...well...ii support him...jia you kor kor!! hahas...ii think ii am acting lame again...hahas...well...just one reminder...dont't mind the music...ii know it sounds a bit gothic...but it is actually the battle theme for final fantasy 9 when zidane and his gang are fighting kuja for the 2nd last battle...the last battle is this very huge thing...flying in mid-air...ii love that part the most...steiner will start doing attacks and it is damn powerful...9999...thats the power...wah...so pro...

hahas...well...thats all folks...ii gotta clear my room now...ii haven't fold my blanket...haven't my table after drawing just now...haven't put up my inuyasha poster...haven't clean my drawer and haven't pack my clothes...ahem*...hahas...well...sayonara minnsan!! gonna watch f7 advent children again after cleaning up...hahas...

2005-11-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hello out there...ii am back posting again...well..this time...ii am posting from my elder brother's computer...hahas...tomorrow is his O`Levels..gotta pray for him today...ii know he can do well...ii just trust him and God...hahas...well...life seems rather hard for him...so many late night studying...he just gotta do it...and ii know he will...ii just have this kinda feeling in me...hahas...just watched dare-devil on tv...it was kinda cool...hahas...wah...ii hope joshy won't come after me using his computer...hahas...well...he is studying now...ii am gonna pray for all the sec4 people including muai online pa-pa...abel lau...lolx...ii am gonna play basketball with him after his O`Levels...just hope ii am free...today couldn't play basketball...ii was sick...flu and cough...haiz...what a bummer...pray that tomorrow will go to bs leaving my flu and cough in the dustbin...hahas...oh dear...if ii am a sec4 kid...tomorrow will be a rough day for me...phew...hahas...but my turn will come soon...sighs*...this is totally not my day...my nose is leaking...and ii finally used finish my tissue box...yea!! and ii just got a new one out from the toilet...the design on the tissue box is rather cool...hahas...diaos... -_-" ...wah...ii am so bankrupt...had to buy the bs book and it was $10!! there goes my pocket money...and ii gave my brother $10 for his lunch and dinner money...hahas...you might be wondering why ii gave...but ii won't tell... =P...hahas...

ii wanna watch "just like heaven" and ii might be watching...hahas...my mother wants to watch it as well...hahas...well...thats good news...hahas...soon...the last time ii went to a cinema was about 2 years or 1 year ago...man...it totally stinks...how can life be like this? sheesh...hahas...life sure is hard...well...actually more like life sure is busy...hahas...my daddy (real one) and younger brother are playing xbox right now...winning 11 ii think...it's a football game...got one time...abel yap challenged my younger brother to a match and he practically won my brother!! 4-3!! abel also won the penalty shootout...gagaga...hahas...to think a small kid who is playing everyday win a sec4 guy who is like busy studying?? ii think abel is a pro with games...well...not to mention how cecilia trashed my elder brother...hahas...at first was 0-0...then afterwards at the penalty shootouts...cecilia won my brother...hahas...that was totally cool!! cecilia seriously showed him who's boss...hahas...you go girl!!

ii watched ff7 advent children 2times in 1 day...one is like very early in the morning...2am...and the other was in the afternoon...2pm...notice the two 2s...hahas...lamez...then at about 6.30pm...ii watched gsd again...continuing from yesterday...hahas...well...ii just love gsd...athrun is so cute...mature...handsome and is like so freaking powerful with his new gundam ''saviour''...hahas...unlike kira...okay...kira is cool...but shinn is kinda childish...really childish...wow...athrun had to like lecture him...cool ain't it? and somemore...athrun is with the special unit...''faith''...hahas...that is like so cool as well!! how ii wish ii have a real gundam too!! ah...thats childish thoughts as well..hahas...

well...thats all folks...ii guess ii will be back tomorrow after bs with hong jin...man...ii still can't decide whether ii should go for the youth fellowship...bryan said ii should go...but ii am not sure...must check my schedule...hahas...well...sayonara minnasan!!

2005-11-06T10:12:00.000+08:00

Hey hey people!! wah...so long never post le...diaoz...hahas...anyways...yesterday service was great...sang the song "shine like stars" again...it's like become my favourite song le...hahas...sat beside my cuzzy and christina (the small kid ii told you the other time) ...hahas...the surmon yesterday was about "revealing your glory..." something like that...it was really meaningful...pastor kong is a real good pastor...hahas...anyways...after service...jt, elisha (elder cuzzy), glorianne (younger cuzzy) and ii had to rush with our dinner as we had CIC classed later on...hahas...well...ii was in such a rush that ii ate the wrong bowl...it was elisha's bowl...and ii soon realised it as it had chilli...ii was like "hey!! my ban mian have chilli!!" then ii stared at jt...his favourite phrase was like "sorry lah...you are the best..." diaoz -_-"...no better things to say...

after dinner...the 4 of us rushed to CIC class...poor caleb still eating...hahas...once we reached the class...the pastor wasn't there yet...so we were considered early...well...after he came...he told us to recite the statement he told us to remember last week...then he approached me and asked me to recite it in front of the whole class...ii was like "what?!" ii totally forgot about it...then ii told him ii forgot to memorize....then he was like... "okay...who else forgot to memorise?" then jt and elisha raised their hands...hahas...well...ii feel so bad...the pastor wasn't angry lah...he was just joking with us...hahas...diaoz...

oh yar...ii sort of made a mistake in my other post...my 6/7 class gathering wasn't on that day...it is going to be held on this coming tuesday...well....ii dun think ii will be going...gotta get ready for church-wide bible study on the next day...yup yup...but ii hope ii won't get a headache again!! sighs*...hahas...

tomorrow keane and ii are going to have our bible study with hong jin...waah...hong jin haven't comfirm the timing yet...then...just yesterday...bryan called up just to ask me whether ii want to go for a youth fellowship on monday...ii was like "eh? ii am having bs with hong jin..." then he was asking me whether can push the time forward...ii was like see how first lors...then ii gotta comfirm it with bryan soon...by tonight...yep yep

ii can't wait sia...december is coming soon...city harvest is gonna shift to expo!! yea!! but ii am going to miss the first week because ii am going for holiday...hahas...well...ii will be joining my brothers and sisters soon...after my holiday of course...wah...ii miss ron!! hahas...thats because got church-wide bible study so dun have cell...wah...ii miss him so much...sniff sniff...okay...that's retard....hahas...

wah...yesterday ii was watching ff7 advent children until 2am in the morning...the graphics is like.....WOW!! so cool!! it is really cool...ii fell in love with the movie once ii saw the trailer...hahas...ii saw the trailer on com somemore...ii am gonna lend my cuzzies saiyuki reload to exchange lahs...ii like cloud the most...hahas...ii really love his hairstyle...hahas..oh yea...on friday...ii had a gundam seed destiny marathon...ii watched from the very first episode to the 14th...from 1pm to 8pm at night...wah...7 hours straight of gsd (ii watched it again because ii didn't quite get the gisp of it) ...ii didn't get sick of it...oh my...ii love athrun!! he is like so cool...better than kira...hahas...actually quite true lah...athrun is more mature than kira for sure...

well...thats all folks...sayonara!!

2005-11-03T15:21:00.000+08:00

Yo...dudes!! this is like none other than vanessa!!hahas...well...yesterday...ii went to the world-wide bible study at city harvest...ii went there at around 5.15pm and had to line up for a few hours...haiz...thanks to Hong Jin...my cell and E342 was first in the line!! hahas...ii bet they went there around 2 something...hahas...so kiasu...hees...wah...then ii sat on the steps rotting...then my elder cousin (my younger cuzzy was on the mrt coming straight after her band practice) talked to me about ff7 advent children...he bought the disc!! ah!! ii wanna watch!! hahas...he said he is gonna lend me the disc...hip hip horray!! hahas...in exchange ii lend them the pride vcds...like that ii won't feel so bad sia...hahas...

yesterday world-wide bible study was a blast!! it was really good!! pastor kong hee was so funny!! hahas...we sort of had two sessions...we had a break in the middle...had to go to the toilet...but the queue was so long!! L-O-N-G!! ah!! hahas...well...by the time my younger cousin and ii got back to our seat...we missed out some parts...but anyways...we managed to catch up...thats a relief...hahas...ii sat beside ho yin from cell E342 and my younger cuzzy...we had to squeeze a bit because nicholas came late...hahas...my poor elder cousin was almost squashed as he sat beside nicholas...hahas...diaoz...well...the whole thing ended quite late...about...11pm tp 12pm...ii think...but anyways...it was a good experience...

the church chatered some bus to take us right to our doorsteps...well...the fee is $2...hahas...my elder cousin sold it to me before bible study started...wow...it was like crowded...the bus...the funny thing was they allowed all the sisters (meaning = all the girls) to go first...when hong jin heard that...he was like shocked!! hahas...so was mu cousins...my younger cuzzy couldn't just leave her brother behind...so...in the end the both of them took taxi with a few other people...well...for me...ii had to follow hong jin as he was sort of ''in-charge'' to take me home...my elder brother didn't go as he was studying for o`levels...so in the end...hong jin's cousin took me home...with a few other girls and eric (from cell E342)...

the car was cramped...man...at first there were 4 of us at the back...then we had to fetch 2 more girls at the mrt station as there were no more trains in use...so...in total...there were 8 people in the car!! wah!! squeeze like mad...ii was sitting right beside hong jin who was leaning against the door...then when the car turned left...the 4 girls squeezed me which in the end ii squeezed hong jin...wah...it was totally lunatic...then after alighting all of the 4 girls...we finally had some space...wah...ii was so tired at that time...so...ii sort of fell asleep...but ii sort of heard them talking about water baptism...they were talking about baptizing in a water theme park...hahas...ii was laughing my head off ( in my sleep) ...hahas...they are so funny...there were 4 people in the car then...eric...hong jin...his cousin and me!! well...the journey was a rather short one...thats because ii was sleeping throughout the whole journey...sad case sia...

eric lives quite near me which ii didn't know it until he said it...diaoz -_-" gagaga...well...when we were reaching my house...guess who we saw?? jian xiang!! oh my gosh!! he was riding the bike on the road...and surprisingly...he rode past our car without even noticing us!!waah...then when we drove just right beside him...eric opened the window and shouted 'jian xiang!!'...wah...he stopped and looked at us...and he almost fell off his bike...hahas...thats a really funny sight to see...ii got off the car as we already reached my house...and jian xiang rode up looking surprised...hong jin asked him why he didn't go...he replied saying he just got back...it was like about 12.45 to 12.55 a.m. in the morning...wah...then somemore...he was going to somebody's house...very diao ah -_-" ...after bathing and eating my dinner...it was about 2am in the morning...so...ii just fell on my bed and slept...

then ii like woke up at 11am in the morning!! 9 hours of sleep!! not bad sia...hahas...well...ii need my beauty sleep...then...my elder brother came back (?!) with a few of his sec4 friends...ii knew a few of them...cecilia...her twin sister...yvonne...abel...shu yin and then the rest ii am not quite sure...hahas...well...dun wanna disturb them...so ii am sort of stuck in my room typing out this post...well...thats all folks!! sayonara minnsan!!

2005-11-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

Hello people!! today ii am in quite a rush to type out this post...just wanna say that ii am so trilled today as this is my very first time going to the Tabernacle organised by City Harvest...it's gonna be so cool...well...at first my mother didn't allow me to go because it will end quite late...then my elder is not going as he has his Olevels to study for...well...then in the end...she allowed me to go...because...there's someone accompanying me home (ii guess)...my cousins are going as well...this is the day!! hahas...can't wait...ii am like leaving at about 3.45pm...so that can meet the rest at around 5.15pm...it takes about 1 hour from tampines to boon lay...wah...it's gonna be a long journey...to make things worse...my elder brother took my mp3!! argh!! how am ii suppossed to occupy myself now?? boo hoos...life is evil...hahas..just joking...well...ii guess ii just gotta find a way to make myself busy...maybe ii can like read a book...draw comic?? nah...afterwards get headache...diaoz...well...guess there's no other way...looks like ii just have to look at people coming in and going out of the train...that's what ii did last time when ii was so bored in the train...hahas...

wah...yesterday...xiao wei, li yun and jt (ii think nick also got go) went for the tabernacle thingy...ii don't know what will happen...so better find out from them...yep yep...wah...my cousin is going there at 4.15pm...also dunno why they go there so early...hahas...maybe got something on...hais...ii just missed my 6/7 class gathering yesterday...ii didn't feel like going...ii think ii was feeling kinda sianz...maybe lah...most of my ex-classmates are going...ii think they really had fun yesterday...maybe the reason why ii didn't go is because ii didn't want to feel lonely again...because last year...ii really felt lonely...everybody just dumped me at one side...making me feel really mad and pissed...then soon...ii decided that feeling lonely won't do anything...so ii didn't really care about it anymore...well...this year ii wasn't feeling lonely anymore!! maybe because ii have found true friends...friends who are always there for me...well...ii am going to my 1A`05 gathering on friday next week...hope ii will feel much better on that day...can't wait to bully jessica lim...hahas...it's gonna be a blast...well...to tell the truth...ii prefer this year better than last year...thats all...nothing else to say...it's just that ii have too much bad memories last year....and ii don't wish to see my teacher...well...too bad for me...hahas...

just watched saiyuki reload gunlock just now...hahas...was laughing like mad...ii love Son Goku the most...he is just so cute!! but the bad thing is that he eats too much...but he hardly gets fat!! amazing ain't it?? hahas...yesterday...ii watched pride until about 10pm before watching CSI Miami...wah...halu satonaka rocks!! he is so totally cool when it comes to playing hockey...sighs* hahas...ii like makoto because he is always getting bullied and he is like the funniest character there...aki seems to be the prettiest there...hahas...and ii think that the both of them make a perfect couple...too bad...takuya kimura is already married and the person who played as aki is going to get married as well...ii heard she is pregnant and takuya has 2 kids liao...sad case sia...wah...not to forget ii had to skip the ahems* part...ew...gross...disgusting...hahas...well...you can't really blame me sia...

oh gosh..time is running out liao...actually half an hour have just passed...diaoz -_-"...just acting lame again...dun mind me...hahas...shit...haven't tie my hair yet...crap...hahas...well...gotta say byebye to my hair...ii am going to cut my hair soon...sniff sniff...wAaAaAh...hahas....dun mind me...lameness runs in this family...so dun bother to say anything...hahas...well...ii guess ii gotta get ready my stuff before leaving for church....sayonara minnasan!!

2005-10-30T13:12:00.000+08:00

Wah...service yesterday was a blast!! you should see everybody!! they were like enjoying themselves...ii was jumping like mad yesterday at the praise and worship...it was like so cool...we had many cool songs yesterday...lah lah lah...hahas...ii sat beside my cuzzy and a little girl...hahas...she was really cute...

after praise and worship...the senior pastor announced some stuff...then the fun part came...we had this guy who was born in africa to lead another praise and worship....then we started to do all sorts of funny dance steps...hahas...ii was totally enjoying myself yesterday....the small girl beside me was kinda shy but then ii started to laugh and encouraged her to dance and puff* she started dancing...hahas...she was really cute...

the surmon was even better...rev rob thompson was like so cool...my whole church loves him...he preached real funny...ii was like laughing like some kind of lunatic...wah...it was like a total blast...after the really cool [diao] service ended...my two cuzzies, jt and ii had to go straight for CIC class...because it was like 7.10pm and our CIC class was like starting at 7.30pm...well...we hang out in the cafe for a while before heading straight for classes...to tell the truth..ii was really exhausted yesterday...ii couldn't think straight...ii felt like sleeping during the CIC class...you should have seen me...ii was yawning all the way...when ii yawned...my eyes get teary...hahas...and my cousin thought ii was crying...don't worry about me lah cuzzy...lolx...ii am fine...hahas...

sorry for like posting so late...the other time when ii was tying this post...ii was distracted by my younger brother and in the end the both of us went to play xbox...so in the end...never post this in time...so here ii am again...hahas....well...after the CIC class...the 4 of us went to eat dinner...we all had ban mian...but ii was a bit extra with the cup of ice milo...(drools) just thinking of it makes me wanna drool....hahas...well...after all those eating...we headed back to church where we met up with xiao wei and there we started to fellowship...we played games until it was quite late when angie 'chased' us home...

well...ii got back home quite late and by the time ii finished bathing...it was like 12am going to 1am...everything was just spinning...so ii just went back to bed and had a good night sleep...

2005-10-28T14:10:00.000+08:00

Heya people!! using the same old color again...this is much nicer than blue...hahas...well...today is the last day of school!! hip hip horray!! got back all my results slip and did a bit of spring cleaning in class today...my table, which was really dirty with all my drawings and statements, was like shinning today!! hahas...it was cool...used a lot of tinner of course...ii rubbed like mad...haiz...but nothing can spoil my mood today...hahas...well...got a bit tired...so...ii decided to take a quick rest...but in the end...ii ended up slacking...as always...diaoz -_-"...hahas...

ii am like crazy over this few songs from the anime 'Gravitation'...most of the songs are sung by the band 'Bad Luck'...which is like 'rock-the-house-down' band...hahas...there is one song in the anime which is sung by Kinya!! ii like that guy's songs...it's nice and cool..hahas....

woo hoos...today is the day for cell...which is the same with other fridays...hahas...but then this one is different...because ii seem to have a bad feeling about going to cell...well...ii forgot to pray about it yesterday...(blush) gees...now ii feel really bad about it...hahas...ii just hope it's a feeling and it's not something bad going to happen to me...well..the last time ii had a bad feeling...it really happened...well...ii shan't say anything about it...to avoid an unwanted mob outside of my house..hahas...well...ii hope if it really happens...ii won't be hit until so hard...(gulps)...

oh!! ii just remembered today was prize-giving day...and guess what? Bryan (a guy from my church) got a prize...also dunno what was it...cool lar...but then ii forgot to clap for him...ii was telling my friends to cheer for my classmates when he was receiving the prize...so sorry brother-in-christ...hahas...ii can't be that lame sia...hahas...well..it's not as bad as some people...

wah...when school ended...ii was so pissed...because my cca teacher don't allow me to quit the cca...what the heck was that suppossed to mean? wahlao...ii feel like slapping him lors...that freaking teacher...who the hell does he think he is? ii don't care...ii am going to quit that cca even if he doesn't want me to...ii really don't give a damn...that stupid teacher...grr...on the day when ii have to go back to school to take more idiotic pictures...ii am going to pass them the letter on which ii am going to quit...let me say again II DON'T GIVE A FREAKING CARE ABOUT THAT LAME AND STUPID CCA!!and if they are not going to let me quit and dare to black-mail me again...ii am so going to ask my mother to write a letter to the principal...ii seriously hate that cca...'why did ii choose that cca in the first place?' you may ask...well...at first ii thought it was a cool cca...then when ii went there 2 times...ii feel sian-ed...and ii don't give a damn on what they think of me...hmph! worse of all...there is a this retarded guy who is in charge of dunno-what-shit...and he keep pestering me...what the hell is his problem?? for my sake...ii am going to quit that cca...his face is those kind of face which you feel like slapping once you see him...and he is a gay...a pure gay!! he looks like a retarded girl who has a deformed face...man...the more ii talk about him...the more ii wanna slap and kick his toot* until he can't be a father liao...oh...what am ii saying?? he is actually a girl in disguise...eh? no no no...i mean he is neither a girl nor a guy...and he deserves to be slapped and abused like shit...

well...no point in talking about that sore loser...ii am going to join guitar no matter how many demerit points they give me...ii don't care...grr...that is where ii am more interested in...ps is the suckiest cca ii have ever taken part in!! can't believe ii have wasted so much space talking about that crap cca...which is like shit...next year better give out flyers to my juniors telling them never to join ps...it is like so crappy...everything you learn there is worse than crap!!

hais...maybe Ron can cheer me up..better go there early again!! hahas...diaoz -_-"...well...that's all folks...sayonara minnasan!!

2005-10-27T14:41:00.000+08:00

Hey hey people!! decided to use a new color today...seems nicer...blue...hahas...well... nothing much happened today...just the same old thing...watching movie in all saint's church inside the school compound...went there like 2 times..just to watch two movies...one of them was a jap movie called 'Jesus is my boss'...it was kinda nice ii guess...everything seem to be fine...but it had a little porn and a lot of violence...woah...dunno what happen during the first few parts...was kinda dozing off...gotta admit that the second part of the movie was much more interesting...

the other movie was 'monster inc'...my gosh...how old is that movie?? we had two choices..either that one or the 'incredibles'...i rather watch the 2nd one than the first one...ii practically watched that a few million times...hahas...then stephanie and ii decided to irritate the people beside us by imitating the characters' speech...it kinda worked....ii could sense jessica.L kinda angry and pissed...hahas...well...the later on of the movie...we decided to shut up...hahas...

did a survey just right after morning devotion...ii finally got my swimming certificate!! ii also dunno what was it...didn't bother to look...hahas...the rest of the day was like boring!! nothing but two lame movies to watch and my butt hurt after sitting down for like so long...tomorrow will be spring cleaning day for my school...everyone gotta get down to business and clean the entire classroom...the last time we cleaned the classroom...the classroom reeked of tinner!! stinks!! cough* cough* wah...can't breathe...hahas...well...ii hope tomorrow got block nose so that won't smell anything unwanted...hahas...

wah...so bored...afterwards maybe have tuition!! chinese somemore...come on!! hello? after exams le...still must have tuition...man...ii am so crap-ped up!! man...yesterday ii was so bored ii decided to read my library books...ii like borrowed them a few weeks ago and now then read...hahas...it's cool...except for some ahem* parts...ew....gross...digusting...yucko... hahas...got a lot of love and romantic parts...and ii thought it was a cool book when ii saw the title...ii guess this is what they really mean by 'never judge a book by its cover'...sheesh...next time gotta read at least the first paragraph...hahas...kiasu sia...hmmm...can't wait for tomorrow's school to end..it's like so cool...the last day of school...hahas...after school gotta go home and get ready for cell group...ii am super kiasu...must get there the earliest...hahas...

besides ii also want to play with Ron...haven't really play with him for 2 weeks...wah...ii am confused about Ron's gender...[but ii put 'him' due to the name]....many people say it is a male...but some other people say it is a female...so ii have decided to look below and conclude it as soon as possible...hahas...poor Ron...but ii think it is a guy...because it is so hyper-active!! females are normally the quiet type...unlike me... =P...hahas...that was unexpected...erms... (~") hey!! ii made a face!! hahas...if you can't see it...nvm...

wah...decided to check out more on siam shade...it's a band for you information...ii know it through samurai x...hahas...cool huh?? -_-" hahas...sometimes ii can act pretty lame...well...like ii said...it runs in the family...don't feel like logging on msn...too bored le...then most of the people usually don't come online so early...haiz...well...guess ii am going now...see what else ii can do beside sitting my ass down doing nothing...hahas....sayonara minnasan!!

2005-10-26T16:10:00.000+08:00

Hey people...this is `van3ssa speaking...wow...a few more days and ii am free from this school business...hahaha...ii pity those pri school kids....while ii am enjoying life...my younger brother can continue going to school...sad case...ii still can't believe that one year has come to an end...it's just so cool...diao... -_-"...next week got this church-wide bible study...ii dun know which day to go...tuesday or thursday...hmmm...most of my cellgroup people are going on wednesday...but my cousin is going on tuesday...ii guess ii go on tuesday...my mother will never allow me to go to church alone without my cuzzies...and somemore my brother ain't going as he have O'levels to prepare...sighs*...it is so cool...church-wide bible study...hahas...

today was my school talent-time...Bryan was playing solo...ii was cheering like mad...so did other girls... o_O ...hahas...well...he did great...ii liked his performance than the other groups...theirs were like...uh...dunno how to say lah...ii am not bias lors...so what if he is my drummer?? he did great lors...at least he tried his best...ii will support my drummer to the end...hahas...he didn't win lar...but then ii still liked his performance the best...jia you brother-in-christ!! hahas...lamez....there was this other band which consists of a girl and three guys...one of the guys was the vocalist...diaoz... -_-" ...and the girl was the bassist...hahas...their performance was rather weird...the guy can't even sing lors...lolx...ii was watching with my mouth open wide all the while...ii was so bored that ii smsed during their performance...snorez...hahas...Bryan got asked me once whether ii wanted to join this talent-time...but ii don't want...because ii totally forgot how to play the guitar...diaoz...there also was breakdancing and dancing etc....but ii still liked Bryan's performance...hehehe...maybe once ii have found my pianist...ii may consider joining the talent-time with the whole band..history-makers...hahas

well...ii was playing with this string soon after Bryan's performance...because ii was totally bored...did ii said that just now? ah...heck care...ah...afterwards gonna play basketball with jia min...yesterday didn't play because jia min overslept and totally forgot about it...wahs...that is totally out of point...how can she sleep?? haiz...never mind...she is going to make up today...ii hope...she better not miss this appointment again!! ah!! wanna play captain's ball...tomorrow ii hope...hees...aiyah...ii seem to be getting better by the day...hahas...that is a good thing anyway...ii still can remember ii was like sooo depressed last friday and saturday...ii am okay now...yea...after so many days of self-reflection...hahas...ii think ii know what to do next time ii feel depressed...either play basketball...or do self-reflection!! hahas..

well...gotta go now...my arm is aching...but still wanna play...i don't care!! hahas...sayonara minnasan!! t.t.f.n [ta ta for now!] lolx...

2005-10-25T14:15:00.000+08:00

life is fragile...
you never know what is going to happen next...
you never know how things will turn out to...
you never know when you are going to die...
thats why it is important...
to treasure every moment with your friends and family...
making every moment a memorable one...

yawns*...that was what ii was doing every minute...the teacher just went on talking about the history of my school...wah!! can't she do anything better?? and practically ii wasted 3 hours of my time sitting in the hall for useless activities...after all that...my class went to do this sports thingy...flying fox and the other one ii forgot liao...it was cool...ii did the flying fox tingy and the other one like no sweat!! it's not even scary...heez...well to me it wasn't scary...but to other girls..some were screaming...diaoz...guess what?? even my principle had a go on the flying fox...she was laughing when she reached to the other end...

soon it was recess...ii went downstairs to buy a drink...okay...then went back to class to slack...and slack and slack...everything was like B-O-R-I-N-G!!

now at home typing this thing...wow...it's like an everyday rotine to me...outside is raining like mad...if Bedok is raining as well...Ron will be braindead...nicholas said Ron hates the rain and most probably sleep the whole day...poor Ron...wah...ii see so many lightning...so cool...hope my computer don't get shock...if get shock...ii very sad!! can't talk to friends online liao...wah...still thinking of that guy...ha ha ha...wonder if he is caught in the rain...diaoz...thank God ii dismiss at 1pm today...if dismiss at same time...ii amso gonna get caught in the rain...wah...then ii also never bring umbrella...then like that very sad case...

wah...how to play basketball today? it is 2.45pm and ii am going down at 5.30pm...hope the rain stop liao...then can play...hahaha...today's school was boring and ii hope tomorrow won't be the same...today didn't bring mp3...no batt...sighs* gotta transfer some other songs to the mp3...ii am all of a sudden crazy about City Harvest and Christian City...and other cool christian bands...wah...can't get enough of the Lord...heez

well...ii guess that's all ii have to say...sayonara minnasan...might type somemore later..ha ha ha...too bored liao...

2005-10-24T15:16:00.000+08:00

a smile is all it takes for friends to feel happy as well...
you smile when you feel happy
and accepted.
sometimes...we fake a smile...
and our friends fake it as well.
making the whole situation worse...
maybe it's best if you take your troubles away..
and smile a real smile...
making everyone happy....
including yourself...

Screams rang throughout the whole school...ii was sitting [more like stoning] in class...then as my friends needed help carrying the hambugers [that was what we were selling for mini-funfair!] so ii decided to lend a helping hand...ii careied two big boxes and ii couldn't see my way as ii walked down the stairs...

they set up the stall while stephanie [mii friend] and ii slacked...ii bought my class food to support them and found it quite hard to chew...ouch! my tooth hurts...as soon as the stall was fully set up...stephanie and ii quickly ran away so that we won't have to do any work...we practically spent half an hour to run away from Bryan and my retard cca leader...ii can't believe the both of them are friends!! oh my gosh...then ii also have one picture of the both of them really close...ew!!

jessica, stephanie and ii actually wanted to go to the haunted house...the rules were either 3 girls or 1 girl 1 boy can go in on the fee of $1...jessica decided to ditch us and she went in with my classmate [boy]...stephanie and ii had to find another friend...then we actually wanted to find terry...but she was at NPCC...very diao... -_-" ...hahaha...well...in the end we didn't go...when jessica came back...she told us that it was lame...so thank God ii didn't waste my $1 on that useless house...lolx...ha ha ha...

after all that crap...stephanie and ii went back to class...there we played 'stress' with a few of our guy classmates...ii won most of them....and when stephanie and ii played 'double stress' we actually lost!! thats because we were too confident of winning that we forgot to 'stress' the opponent...man...then the second round we won...because we opened our eyes real big...well...after all that...ii went back to my seat and tried sleeping...i slept real late last night...so ii was really tired this morning...ii did some self-reflection again before stoning...ii kept thinking of the song "all ii need is you"...ii couldn't get that song out of my head...maybe God was telling me that ii don't need anybody except Him...for He will give me the best...that was what ii thought...

my friends all thought ii was depressed and tried cheering me up...well...ii wasn't exactly depressed but ii am just tired and exhausted...friday and saturday were a killer...so many events happening...so many late night sleeps...ii seriously need the rest or else ii will grow mad...and somemore...ii have some important matters yet to be attended to...life is a real struggle...sighs*...thank God again for friends who are willing to go the extra mile for me...thank God for brothers and sisters in christ who care...and thank God for family members who are always there for us...well...ii am just happy that ii have friends who really care for me and really take care of me...life could have been more worse without them in my life...and of course...if ii didn't have God...life would have been nothing more but a pure torture...

my favourite phrase in the song "all ii need is you" is..."you hold the universe...you hold everone on earth...all ii need is you..." ii think that phrase is rather meaningful...well...ii guess that's all ii have to say for today...sayonara minnasan!!

Listening to: all ii need is you Lord
By: Hillsongs
Current Mood: happy yet still a bit depressed...and very tired... ZzZzZ snorez.............

2005-10-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

nobody can hurt me again...ii have been hurt for so many times...and sometimes ii think ii deserved it...that guy won't know anything...and ii am going to treat it all as a nightmare...ii think ii am going to forget that ii ever like him and get on with my life...maybe this is better...if ii could be strong like last time...if only ii was a person with no feelings...things would not have to turn out this way...maybe God wants me to experience how it feels like...and not make the same mstake...sighs*...ii don't think ii can be as cheerful as always...this matter will plaque me until that guy know what is happening...well...ii don't mind if he don't care...ii don't mind if he doesn't like me...well...the good news is that ii can go off as a wanderer when ii grow up...ii always wanted to be free and to roam around the entire world to see the wonders of life...now...ii bet he is happily enjoying life...not knowing what is happening to me...while ii am here wallowing in self-pity...all hope is lost...the worse thing is...that guy is in the same church as me...and whenever ii see him...i will feel weak again...weak and fragile like a baby...ii hope ii won't die just by looking at him...ii don't think anybody knows what ii am going through now...liking a person who doesn't even know you exist...ii know that this is one of the reasons why the earth is still spinning...if things like this never happened...ii think pigs will fly...to some people...it is an everyday thing...to me...it is more than that...

just finished eating my lunch...finally ii got my appetite back...well...ii didn't eat much today...because ii didn't feel like eating so much...when ii grow up...ii wanna be a samurai...maybe ii will migrate to japan...where ii can forget all about that guy and learn to be what ii am...ii think the anime rurouni kenshin has influenced me...except for the lovey dovey part...sighs* ii am going to play basketball afterwards...maybe ii can just play and forget...basketball is just the love of my life...ii know ii look short to be a basketball player...which ii am not...but ii just play basketball...because it helps me to forget bad memories...well at least ii am playing with jia min...vanessa yong [maybe]...jia min is like a joker...and with her ii know ii can laugh my head out...jia min is just so cute...ha ha ha...wait a minute...did ii just laugh?? wow...thats like my first laugh in this post!!the previous post...ii was totally depressed...well...in this post...ii must be happy...so that jt and my cuuzy's effort of cheering me up won't go to waste...but ii still can't deny the fact that ii really like that guy...

yesterday before going home after service...met up with bryan...he asked me to join the worship team for our school...ii was not sure whether can make it...because ii totally forgot a lot of chords...ii only know a few notes...lol...can't blame me sia...didn't play guitar for more than a year...diaoz... -_-"...hahaha...ii have decided to go on a diet...after weighing myself today...ii found out that ii lost one kg...after not eating and running a lot from yesterday...like ii said..ii am going to play basketball today...so that ii can exercise..ii must at least lose 5 more kg...and ii am going to do that without any pills or any slimming programme...lolx...it will be a world record!! hahaha...ii hardly doubt so...wah...nowadays...my post become so long le...hahaha...that's because ii am so bored...nothing else to do...and nobody to talk to on msn...sighs*...when is 5pm coming?? ii wanna go and play basketball as soon as possible...so that ii can lose more weight...must jump more...ii must at least grow 4 more cm...or maybe possible...grow until my cousin's height!! she is like about 168cm or 170cm...wah..so tall...ii am only 154cm lors...so short hor?? can't blame me...my mother is short so as my daddy...my brother is only 168cm and he is sec4...my cousin is only sec1...so who is taller?? somemore she is a girl...many people don't believe that she is actually sec1...well...ii believe...because ii practically grew up with her...and if ii don't know her age...don't you think that ii am a lousy elder cousin??ii can vouch for her...ii was with her when she celebrated her birthday...cuzzy!! hahaha...looks like ii am acting mad again...lolz...

now that ii am so happy...ii can't wait for friday's cell group and saturday's service...ii think ii am such a confusing person...a moment ago...ii was like so depressed...then now ii am so happy...thats because ii am going to basketball...ii hope ii can grow lors...wait a minute...didn't ii just say that just now?? hahaha..lamez...ii seem to like greenday [a band] now beside siam shade [jap band] and christian city, delirious, hillsong united...ha ha ha...ii love so many bands!! cool ain't it...well..ii think ii have post enough..b.b.f.n...byebye for now!!got that phrase from tigger from winnie the pooh!! hahaha...sayonara minnsan!!

2005-10-23T09:47:00.000+08:00

depression...depression is what fills my heart now...no other feelings...just that...depressed about what you may ask...ii will just shake my head and say nothing...it all started on friday-21st Oct 2005...cell was at 4pm as later on we are having a barbecue...ii cycled to the tampines mrt station with happy thoughts and was feeling over the moon...ii met jessica lim there as ii brought her to my cell that day...we alighted at the bedok mrt station and we walked to nicholas' house from there...we met nicholas on the way...riding a bike with a few of another cell members...ii was still feeling happy...soon people started coming in and ii was still feeling happy...we had games and jessica had to go off...jean sent her off and we started praise and worship...all ii was thinking was God...then we had bible study...soon...we were off to the barbecue...ii was overjoyed...but then...during the barbecue...ii saw something ii shouldn't have seen...that was the time where ii felt depressed and down...my cousin and ii helped li yun with the barbecue...ii did that to forget what ii saw...it helped...ii was enjoying myself...when we finished barbecueing...we went back to nicholas' house so that amos, my cuzzy, li yun and ii could eat the ones we have barbecued so hard...everyone was enjoying the food when we were still barbecueing...my face felt so hot that ii could fry an egg on it...ii guess ii went too near to the barbecue...ii was happy at that time as amos, cuzzy, li yun and ii were fellowshipping and watching a bit of the tv...we finished quite fast and the two cell went off at 9.30pm...then...when ii see him again...ii felt depressed again...

when ii reached home...ii was stoned and zoning out...then ii decided to sms jt...jt helped cheer me up and ii felt better...ii slept like a baby...

the next day...saturday 22nd Oct 2005...it was the hunt of the red octogen...everyone was wearing red...we looked like big red packets walking about...when everyone gathered [the two cells combined]...we had to split ourselves into four groups...ii was in the same group as nicholas, cecilia and another guy whom ii forgot the name...ii felt even depressed at that time...but ii decided to fake a smile so as not to dampened everybody's spirits...but ii kept quiet all the time...those who knew me very well...knew that ii am a person who loved to talk a lot...mostly about anime...but yesterday ii was like so depressed...ii felt like going home...yar lah...it was fun...my group name was 'the doggie group'...nicholas thought of it...reminded me of Ron...but even ron could not make me smile that day...my group cheer was kinda funny...nicholas thought of that as well...my group had to dance around a tree like red indians...take pictures of red things...it was kinda similiar to the show 'amazing race'...as we were at the shopping centre 'giant'...we had to find out some items' prices...we walked around and around...then we had to cross this carpark to get to the game masters for our next task...there my group met up with another group...jt saw me still depressed...he poked me with a board and keep doing funny signals...ii tried to smile..but still couldn't...then my group went faster than theirs [the rule of the game is to stick as a group no matter what]...then nicholas looked back to see if ii was okay...ii fake a smile [ii wasn't okay...ii was hurt!!]...then we had to drink 2litres of coke!! the other groups were far ahead than mine...then ii decided to drown my sorrows with coke [since there's no beer]...ii drank and drank and drank and saved a few more gulps for the rest of the members...ii was still feeling down in the dumps...but ii burped softly a few times [too much coke/gas]...then we head off again...ii was practically quiet for the whole while...nobody knew that ii was depressed...except my cousin and jt...my cousin is like a sister to me...so she can like sense it very well...for jt...ii told him on friday...the both of them tried cheering me up when we were lining up for seats just outside the santuary...then nicholas and amos appeared...nicholas stood in front of me while amos stood a few steps away from nicholas...leaning against the lift...my cousin asked me out loud...are you okay?? then nicholas looked at me and asked me the same thing...ii fake a smile again and say yar..ii am okay...when the door opened...we walked in [well..some rushed in]...actually ii wanted to sit with nicholas...but ended up sitting with jt...anyway it was for the better...my cuzzy sat beside me which was even better...nicholas sat a few seats in front with my elder cousin [elisha] and daniel...

the service soon began...everyone was like praising the Lord with all their heart...but still ii can't shake off the depression...it was too hard for me...ii couldn't praise Him like what ii used to...then when everybody was like singing their soul out...ii just knelt down and broke into tears..here ii am thinking of that guy without praising the Lord...ii was totally ashamed of myself...ii couldn't think straight...ii cried and cried...until the praise and worship was almost over where ii quickly dried my tears so that no one will know...but my cousin as usual knew it and she asked me whether ii got cry...ii shook my head [it was embarrassing to cry in front of my younger cousin]...jt gave me pat on the back...and the surmon start...it was shorter than last week as the pastor was tired...when the whole service was over...we went up and angie anounced a few things before we went out for dinner...ii just had a drink..ii didn't feel like eating...didn't eat lunch and dinner...ii was still alive...jt rushed with his food as he and ii had a course later on...my two cousins were also in that course...but they had to go for their grandfather's birthday party [their mother side]...we met with this other guy from the cell...ii forgot his name liao..but his cell was the one which combined with mine for the barbecue...

the course was kinda short as we were ten minutes late...ii wasn't thinking of him at that time...so ii could concentrate...later...jt brought me away from the crowd so that he could talk to me in private about that guy and me...he also bought me sweets to cheer me up...jt knew who was the guy whom ii liked...and jt knew him very well...like a friend lah...and ii thought he has a girlfriend liao...jt just encouraged and encouraged me...i felt much better...when we went back to church..ii decided to do a bit of thinking by myself...then nicholas asked whether ii wanted some tibits...ii was kinda depressed that time [again!! can't say why]...ii shook my head...and after a while...nicholas told me to sit in between of him and jt as ii felt left out...ii didn't want to..because ii would feel even worse...so ii just stayed where ii was...time passed very slowly...and ii still felt depressed at the end of the day...well...at least better than in the morning...then we took the chartered bus to the mrt station and boarded the mrt...my card balance was -0.05!! as if my day wasn't bad enough...ii sat in the train beside melissa and jean...jt sat at the opposite seat..then he sat on my row...then ii sat beside him and ii felt a bit better again...if ii didn't call him 'kor' [brother]...he would slap me...*frowns*...ii started to talk again...and when he alighted at city hall...ii talked to jean...

when ii reached home...ii knew somthing was wrong between my brother and cecilia...ii prayed for them...ii prayed for him...ii prayed for jt...ii prayed for the whole cell...ii just prayed and prayed...until it was about 12.45am...well in the end...ii felt so much better...ii handed everything to God...for He knows me very well...and He has already planned my future...so ii have nothing to worry...well..ii was still thinking of him...but ii don't think ii should like him anymore...if that guy ever comes to this blog and see this post...ii will prasie the Lord...but even so...that guy won't even know whether it is him or not...nobody knows except for jt...ii don't mind if jt tells him or not...he will come to know sooner or later...well...ii have stated everything ii felt and thought of yesterday...ii am slightly better now...thanks jt...thanks cuzzy...sayonara minnasan...ii won't forget that guy...even if it kills me...[it took me one hour to write this post... -_-" ]

2005-10-21T11:11:00.000+08:00

Heya peeps!! ii am vanessa..like duh!! who else can it be besides me the famous girl who can't really blow bubble gum...-_-" ...LoL* well today's the day!! yea!! ii finished school rather early today as my school has this sec3 and 4 graduation thingy...i didn't know about that until just this morning...how blur can ii be?? my school was like decorated from top to bottom...it looks real nice...ii wonder whether mine will be as grand as theirs...lolx...well...ii had CCA for one and a half hour...ii did nothing but talk and eat...ha ha ha...[that is why ii am so FAT... -_-" ] haiz...nothing special happened today...well...go figures....life is hard...yea...ii understand...ha ha ha...what am ii talking about...

oh...today ii am going to nicholas's house early again so that ii can play with Ron again!! ii actually had this idea of walking Ron around the neighbourhood..but ii know nicholas won't let me do that...after cell today...the whole cell is going to have a barbecue!! cool huh?? ii can't wait...but...the sad thing is that ii must watch my diet...so ii guess ii won't be eating so much at the barbecue...sad sad and sad...the barbecue is for the friends whom we are bringing...ii wonder what food are there...[drools...oops!!] ha ha ha...ii hope it won't rain today...or else the barbecue will be ruin!! no...ha ha ha...well...let's just pray...prayer works ya know??

well...tomorrow is the big event for my cell...ii think...it is the Hunt Of The Red Octogen...ii think this is how you spell it...gees...ii just read DeathNote book 4...the guy like totally kissed the girl!! Ohmygosh...ii don't see it everyday you know?? well sometimes when ii am walking down the streets...ii will see this kind of thing...and ii often felt like puking...ha ha ha...another big event coming up will be my school Mini Funfair...my class 1A will be selling...food...yea...and ii...dunno what kinda food they will be selling...ha ha ha...for me?? ii will be the slacker...ii shall slack for the entire funfair...unless they really need my help...when ii was in st.hilda's primary [shps]...my class managed to sell a lot of stuff...of course...with my pursuading words...nobody can resist what ii am selling...ha ha..jk jk lah...ii am not that good with words...and besides...ii can't pronounce some words properly...like the other time during history presentation...ii totally made myself embarrassed...this was what ii said..."in Qin Shi Huang's tomb...there are practically 7300 shoulders sculptures..." my word 'soldiers' became 'shoulders'...and ii spent quite some time trying to pronounce it correctly...man...the whole class was laughing their heads off...but ii am quite used to it...my friends and ii are known as the "havoc-makers" instead of "history-makers"[the name of my band]...

enough with those havoc stuff...ii will be leaving right after lunch...mmm...ii can smell it from my room...[drools...oh dear...not again..]...ii am wearing a blue t-shirt and a pair of shorts...ii just bought the t-shirt yesterday..my mother chose for me and it was size small...small my head!! it was like huge!! but anyway...ii love baggy t-shirts...ii can't stand tight and fitting clothes...and ii hate wearing skirts...it is totally not cool...skirts and dresses are a pain in the neck...when ii was young ii was often seen wearing dresses and skirts...that's because my mother was the one who chose the clothes for me...can't blame me...when ii was young...ii can't make decisions...man...but when ii was like around pri3 or pri4...ii changed entirely...skirts to me are nothing but cloth that are useless...the only skirt ii have is my school skirt...hee hee hee...ii was brought up with two brothers...can't blame me for being like a tomboy...since young ii never liked playing with dolls...whenever ii see one ii will always feel like vomitting...ii also dunno why was ii like that...so my parents never bought me dolls...because it would be a waste of their money...well..ii gotta go now...gonna eat lunch...early lunch...sayonara minnasan!! heez!! ii am off to cell in just a few hour's time...hallelujah!!

Listening to: Blow Winds [Sung by Son Goku, Genjyo Sanzo and Sha Gojyo from Saiyuki Reload]
Mood: So happy...[going to play with Ron soon...]

2005-10-18T14:16:00.000+08:00

Woo hoos!! ii am back and kicking...wow...yesterday was a really troublesome night...haiz...guess what?? ii couldn't sleep at all!! AT ALL!! ii was so bored...bored and bored and bored...seriously couldn't sleep...ii was so bored...ii was staring into blank space...the world was spinning...and everyone in the house was sleeping...except me...ii...was just staring at my ceiling which need to be cleaned...it looks clean though..ha ha ha...since ii got nothing to do...ii actually wanted to on the computer since it was in my room...but ii didn't...the risk was too much...if my mother knew that ii switched on the com...ii can say "sayonara" to my butt*...for it will be kicked far far away...sighs*
ii am so disappointed yesterday...ii was so hoping to go for prayer meeting...but my mother don't allow...thats because neither my cuzzies nor my brother was going...Hong Jin didn't allow my brother and Cecilia to go as they have O'levels...ha ha ha...my cousin cannot go as her mummy didn't allow her...
as they are not going...there will be no one to follow with me home...so my mummy didn't allow...it was from 7 to 8 at nick's house...if ii could go...ii will defintely go there early...because ii wanna play with Ron...but ii actually wanted to go for prayer meeting to pray for my brother's O'levels...ii am really worried for him...this exam will determine his next challenge in life...sighs*
well...let's go back to the topic...ii have so many restless nights...but last night was the really the serious one...ii tossed and ii turned...ii squeezed my boster until the fluff is gonna come out...ii arranged my blanket well...ii jumped on my until the spring is gonna burst...ii stared at all my anime collection...ii drew and drew manga...read manga...think manga...but..ii still CAN'T SLEEP!! sighs*...
then ii decided to sms nick...he didn't reply for quite some time sia...then at that time...ii did everything again...stare at anime collection...read manga...draw manga etc...then after about half an hour or one hour...he replied...my sms tone was underdogs...it starts will this serious electric guitar playing...and ii jumped in shock...ii picked my handphone on my bed and sms back...he took quite some time before smsing back...dunno what he is doing...ii asked about Ron and nick said he was braindead...my POOR RON!! [okay...he is not mine...relax..i dun wanna an angry mob outside my house...LOL...] ii heard from nick that he is kinda scared of rain...lol..not sure lah...but Ron like slept the whole day...ii can't wait for friday where ii can pat him again...ha ha ha...ii think ii am crazy...
yesterday ii managed to sleep at....2am!! yes!! ha ha ha..jk jk...ii think it was earlier than that...but ii wanna say thank you to nick for dispersing my boredom...ha ha ha...well...ii had a good night sleep last night and managed to wake up and helped my grandma cooked lunch...hope no one gets a stomach ache..ha ha ha...don't blame me ah...
well...thats all folks...sayonara...

2005-10-16T16:14:00.000+08:00

Woo hoos...ha ha ha...ii am back...guess ii am really bored...well...can't blame me for that...
wa...service yesterday was great...ii was like totally enjoying it..seems like ii can't get enough of it...saw Bryan first thing i got there...shocked..ha ha ha...
well...service is on saturday and cell is on friday...at nicholas' house...ii love going there early...guess why?? [pause for a long time...]
can't guess?? well...that is because ii wanna play with nicholas' doggy!! ha ha ha...Ron is like so cute...until now..ii still dunno what is Ron's gender...ha ha ha...weird...but ii will know soon...He is like so cute lors...ii love patting it...somehow...nicholas looks a lot like Ron...that is not an insult lahs...it is more like a compliment...lol...whenever ii get there...ii will enter the kitchen...and get a warm welcome [more like wet welcome..with Ron licking me all over...LOL] from Ron...he is always sniffing out for my handphone...dunno why...
there was once when Ron totally jumped on me and licked my ear...ii was sort of laughing my head off...it was ticklish...like duh*
ii love dogs...thats because they are much cuter than cats...wa...got once which ii got scratched by a cat...ii am not bias sia...just hate cats...hate the way they go around purring just to get attention...haiz...it is totally sickening...dogs are way much better...ha haha
there was another account where Ron was chasing me around the table...ii have lots of fun with Ron...ii seriously love to go there early sia...play with Ron...how many times must ii repeat the same thing ah??
wa wa wa...ha haha...acting lame...yesterday...after service...during fellowship...ii was like spending a whole lot of time trying to blow bubble gum...jt, jean and mii cuzzy were like trying to help me by telling me what to do...still can't...ii almost spit the whole thing on my elder cousin...ha ha ha...jt was talking about his hair and touching it all the time...so vain sia... -_-"...ha ha ha jk jk...don't put it to heart jt...he was bullied by most of the younger kids there...so poor thing..elisha [elder cousin], jt, my cuzzy [glorianne] and ii are going to start a beginners christian course next week after service...Daniel told us about it and about how we take our attendance by scanning our ezy link cards...my cuzzy was like "really?? so cool..." everyone had a great laugh...LoL...she is so cute...the place was jam-packed with ppl that we had to queeze our way through...we had dinner and ii couldn't finish my dinner...so ii passed it to my elder brother...which he pushed it to nicholas...nicholas was like shaking his head like mad...then the auntie took it away...there goes my noodles...but nvm...ii couldn't finish it anyway...ii had a heavy lunch...KFC...wow...i had to give some to elisha...my brother shared lunch with cecilia...and they were the last to finish it...so slow...ha haha...
yesterday was like a blast...did ii say that just now?? ii can't really remember what ii wrote...ha ha ha..that is a real pity...woo hoos...tomolo got prayer meeting..time to show what we christians can do with prayer...hallelujah...
wahh...talk to much liao...ha ha ha...bye bye people!! ii might be back again...because ii am too bored liao...

2005-10-16T13:31:00.000+08:00

Hey hey ppl out there!! Thiis iis none other than Van Tan!! Ha ha ha...a 13 year old girl who stiill doesn't know how to blow bubble gum..ii am proud to say that ii am from Ciity Harvest!! Hallelujah and iin a wonderful cell group N155! Ha ha ha...just finished watching some tv...now ii am slacking like never before!! ha ha ha...like duh! cause examinations are just over and i am finally free!! FREE ii tell ya!! ha ha ha...just overjoyed that exams are really over...the rain iis getting heavier and ii am getting too cold for comfort...ii think ii have a flu...seriously...not kidding ya..totally lame lors...ha ha ha...well...lets just say ii am bored...wait...am ii contradicting myself?? ii think ii am...ha ha ha...ok ok...mii final conclusion is that ii am free, bored and tired...well even though ii am tired...ii still feel happy...yesterday ii reached home at about 12am...went church...ii dun mind coming home so late for God...the mrt trip back home was a fun one...oh yea...before church...my cell and another cell went bowling...it was just so fun...at the first few tries...ii got lokang...that means my ball all went into the gutter...ha ha ha...soon...ii finally did a strike..and total in all i got 2 strikes!! Yea!! to tell the truth...when ii bowl...ii must always try for a few times before ii can get strike...it is always like that....But ii am so proud of my cousins and my elder brother [same cell as me]..because our grandfather is like a pro in bowling...he went for a few championships and got a whole load of trophies...but he threw them away!! What a waste!!man...if he still has them...his trophies would have been placed with mine and my dad's...then the whole shelf would be crowded...ha ha ha...ii used to be an athlete...but then now ii have totally stopped training..and have put on a lot of weight...so don't be surprised to see me as fat as a pig...ha ha ha...ii am really envious of my cousins...because they are so tall!! wow...Glorianne...don't mind giving me some of your height!! ha ha ha...just joking...ii am like so short..and even my younger cousin is catching up with me!! and she is only pri 5!! ah!! Katrianne...have mercy...sobs*...ha ha ha...but Elisha is like the tallest...man...taller than my brother even though he is older...man...it is so embarrassing...and ii love them a lot...because they are really nice and cool people...who are also serious about God...don't believe me go and make friends with them lah!! ha ha ha...sniff sniff...ii am so proud of mii cousins...jia you!! ha ha ha..well..thats all folks...see ya around soon...heez

2005-10-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

Phew...sorry for the small and unreadable words...ha ha ha...well...i guess that's all i have to say...bye bye...ii am iin a rush for something else...

2005-10-14T10:58:00.000+08:00

Hi hi people!! This is Van Tan Chewing Gum speaking...ii am so happy that my exams are over and ii am practically jumping for joy...ha ha ha.......ii was seen playing basketball like mad...well....ii am a very enthu girl...not to mention that basketball is the love of my life...ha ha ha...well...all the best to all who haven't finish exams yet...byes byes...

2005-10-01T16:14:00.000+08:00

Yo yo!! This is Van Tan Chewing Gum speaking..this is like my newest blog...don't die of heart attack ah......hope you guys like it!! ha haha!!